I believe there is a reason for everything.

There is a reason I have to face what I'm experiencing at the moment, a positive consequence aswell as a negative one. While people often only contemplate on the negative one, they fail to recognise the small, but somewhat significant advantage of having a problem, namely, bulimia.

It is beyond me how I will recover, I just don't see that happening. I'm not ready to get better and I will not be for the forseeable future. Recovery is a distant dream for me at the moment.
Bulimia is a cruel addiction, an addiction to self-harm. It is not something anybody should ever wish for, so please excuse all those young pro-anas and pro-mias out there. Typically, they are teenage girls confused by how harmful eating disorders are to the body and the soul. Pro-ana and pro-mia sites websites sicken me, yet I excuse them for I am well aware that the authors are suffering from mental illnesses.

I can't honestly see a future for me without bulimia, but I'm hoping to God there is one.

Wow I am starving. It's so nice outside I could kill for an ice-cream. Yum. Ice-cream binge. Uh-oh. It's the one thing I always binge on, and I just can't fight cravings now that I've got my period back. Oh well.